I am calm now.. My computer screen is still intact and I rarely stay angry for long.. I also do not think I have ever hated anyone for longer than it takes my pain and anger to subside which it has... I am just resigned now to be alone.. more than my heart being destroyed, my trust in people and my own judgement was badly damaged but I'll move on like always.. maybe not as I was before but I'll move on just the same.

I did learn something though which once again I can thank the same person that I was hating lastnight.. I learned that needing someone only brings pain and that to be happy you can only rely on yourself. therefore i move on completely alone... it has pain of its own, being alone.. but its a safe pain that I can live with.

I'm also taking down this poem seeing as how I no longer feel this way. I do not hate, not even him.. I still love him very much as a matter of fact and its the only reason why I was upset enough to write a horrendous poem such as this in the first place...

To who this was about (you know who you are) I'm sorry and I do still love you, that didnt just go away...