Ilmater

A Father, A Friend A companion to the end are you listening never judging believing always trusting in me, your lil' girl to do the right thing when noone else will A warrior, A fighter Brave and fierce are you A true foe knowing no fear arms like steel in action yet so gentle embracing when holding me near A healer, A helper a constant to rely on are you running here running there always willing to share you give freely never caring for return gratified in knowing you could care fulfill someones need make it better their life easier to fare My light, my beacon my mentor in life are you teaching of trust u

He smiled at her, winning her heart without even knowing. Her love for him grew in the days that follwed, consumming her heart, leaving her body glowing. She followed him everywhere wondering if her love he did return. How could he not? She asked. The thought of unreciprocated love making her stomach twist and churn. Taking a deep breath she runs up ahead, clutching his sleeve she claims undying love. A frown and a sigh he untangles her grip "I'm sorry beautiful girl but I love another but i do think you quite the beautiful dove" Ripping and burning her heart breaks in two as she falls to the ground feeling cheated and used. With tremb

Bleeding heart Captive body Used, raped, and demeaned He takes her when he wants Anyway he chooses Pain and humiliation Now a constant in her life Spirit broken Willpower diminished Eyes closed in shame She spreads her thighs She turns her head and cries As he watches as another man takes What she gave to him as a prize She sought out love This woman white dove It all went wrong As she was abused and shoved In this sad game of love Now slave to her master She is just a sullied, wounded dove

Coming to a crossroad. which way should I go? One way leads me to what I know. The other hints at dreams yet untold. Am I brave enough to travels waters that may end abruptly or never end at all? Do I surpress myself by sticking to what is always a constant, a bit unending in itself? The descision should be easy, I only need choose a perfered path. The outcome makes the difference which makes the descision more immense. I will travel the path I know like all the days before. Perhaps tomarrow that may change and I'll reach for something yet unknown.

For lack of anything better to do. I sit here and write these words to you. Even now my mind is drawing a blank. The words rise up and then like a rock in water they sank. When bordom hits I feel all depressed and morose. Heh. Maybe I could use a little fructose! ACK! See? Stupidity has just set in! My mind is on it's own whim! Please give me something to occupy me. If I dont find something to do I fear I will carry on and you will flee. This is getting worse and worse. I think you should pray for me to change my course. But these words, they will stay. They are stuck in my head like very thick clay. Perhaps in time some sembl

Letting go- How do I do this when I need you so. I think about life without you and my tears start to flow. I can feel the darkness bearing down on me as black as a crow. I see you with another, I try to look away, I do not want to know. My heart cries out in anguish, your loss definate blow. Remembering you- Your sweet touch and how it made my heart feel like it flew. How you gave it all up for something new. Now I stand here alone with my pain and stew. My anger bubbling and boiling like a brew. I was such a fool- I believed you and you turned around and treated me like a tool. My pain and misery so deep it could fill a pool.