A Father, A Friend
A companion to the end
are you
listening
never judging
believing
always trusting
in me, your lil' girl
to do the right thing
when noone else will
A warrior, A fighter
Brave and fierce
are you
A true foe
knowing no fear
arms like steel in action
yet so gentle
embracing
when holding me near
A healer, A helper
a constant to rely on
are you
running here
running there
always willing to share
you give freely
never caring for return
gratified in knowing
you could care
fulfill someones need
make it better
their life easier to fare
My light, my beacon
my mentor in life
are you
teaching of trust
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He smiled at her, winning her heart without even knowing.
Her love for him grew in the days that follwed, consumming her heart, leaving her body glowing.
She followed him everywhere wondering if her love he did return.
How could he not? She asked. The thought of unreciprocated love making her stomach twist and churn.
Taking a deep breath she runs up ahead, clutching his sleeve she claims undying love.
A frown and a sigh he untangles her grip "I'm sorry beautiful girl but I love another but i do think you quite the beautiful dove"
Ripping and burning her heart breaks in two as she falls to the ground feeling cheated and used.
With tremb
Bleeding heart
Captive body
Used, raped, and demeaned
He takes her when he wants
Anyway he chooses
Pain and humiliation
Now a constant in her life
Spirit broken
Willpower diminished
Eyes closed in shame
She spreads her thighs
She turns her head and cries
As he watches as another man takes
What she gave to him as a prize
She sought out love
This woman white dove
It all went wrong
As she was abused and shoved
In this sad game of love
Now slave to her master
She is just a sullied, wounded dove
Coming to a crossroad.
which way should I go?
One way leads me to what I know.
The other hints at dreams yet untold.
Am I brave enough to travels waters that may end abruptly or never end at all?
Do I surpress myself by sticking to what is always a constant, a bit unending in itself?
The descision should be easy, I only need choose a perfered path.
The outcome makes the difference which makes the descision more immense.
I will travel the path I know like all the days before.
Perhaps tomarrow that may change and I'll reach for something yet unknown.
For lack of anything better to do.
I sit here and write these words to you.
Even now my mind is drawing a blank.
The words rise up and then like a rock in water they sank.
When bordom hits I feel all depressed and morose.
Heh. Maybe I could use a little fructose!
ACK!
See?
Stupidity has just set in!
My mind is on it's own whim!
Please give me something to occupy me.
If I dont find something to do I fear I will carry on and you will flee.
This is getting worse and worse.
I think you should pray for me to change my course.
But these words, they will stay.
They are stuck in my head like very thick clay.
Perhaps in time some sembl
Letting go-
How do I do this when I need you so.
I think about life without you and my tears start to flow.
I can feel the darkness bearing down on me as black as a crow.
I see you with another, I try to look away, I do not want to know.
My heart cries out in anguish, your loss definate blow.
Remembering you-
Your sweet touch and how it made my heart feel like it flew.
How you gave it all up for something new.
Now I stand here alone with my pain and stew.
My anger bubbling and boiling like a brew.
I was such a fool-
I believed you and you turned around and treated me like a tool.
My pain and misery so deep it could fill a pool.
The sun used to shine so brightly when you were near, even on the
most dismal day now it always seems like there is a storm cloud on
the horizon ready to smother the light.
Thoughts of you would send me spiraling happily through my day when
you were away and the prospect of seeing you again would make my
heart leap with joy, now my heart grows heavy and sad with the
thought of seeing you and knowing it will never be the same again.
My heart feels smotherd by layers of pain, cracking and breaking from
the weight of it all, I'm struggling desperately to fight through and
find your love again to heal my heart but whenever I get past
A casual glance
She long's to dance
only for the chance
She see's in his stance
A loving embrace
A state of grace
A slowed step to her pace
A pretty smile on her face
A brush of his lip's
Warm breath and small nip's
Heart's spiral and dip
Pleasure running down to her hip's
Down on his knee
Love in his plea
Will you marry me?
Will you set my heart free?
A nod of her head
A heart that's been fed
Yes she will wed
A pledge till she's dead
Passion's flare
Heart's laid bare
Even time Doesn't dare
To rip assunder a love so rare
She sigh's heavily, thinking in her mind "Oh god, please... Not again, not another fight" "What did I do or say this time?" (she doesn't dare say it aloud in fear that it will only escalte his anger more).
She listen's to him yell at her, wincing as his voice becomes louder and meaner. She watches him intently for any sudden moves torwards her person and purposally puts as much distance between him and her as she possibly can without leaving the room (that would only enrage him if she left while he was yelling at her). She answer's him meekly when asked something and tries to assuage him but when he is like this nothing she says is rig
I was so sad...
I was so blue...
I believed in you so much...
I tried so hard to make it true...
The truth of your facade brutally awoke me.
My own need broke me.
The memories of your treachery chokes me...
The image was shattered. The lie revealed.
The dream has ended. The truth was shown and with it the pain was sown.
This wound that you made... Will it ever fade?
Do you think on it at all or even bother to care?
You say that you do... But then who are you?
You are not my love!
You are not true!
You are a nightmare with no substance to be believed in!
You are worse than nothing. You are a lie and never to be trusted!
Ahhhh....
The first initial pinprick.
A shiver, a wince, a long sigh
Oh how I love that painful yet so welcomed stick.
The adrenaline fulfilling a need to fly.
The slide of the point piercing my tender flesh.
To feel the tear and a catch.
Eyes closed tight, hands clammy and wet.
A quiver, a shake, then tense before weakness prevails and i get scared and jet.
A nod of my head, fingers griped in a clentched fist.
Halfway through...
A whimper, a cry, a deep breath.
A reaffirmed grip on her thigh.
An Imaginary pop...
Penetration complete...
A small bead of crimson clinging perfectly...
So cool, so neat...
A lingering throb.
A se
Loriana gazed up at the full moon and the flawless night sky, inhaling deeply of the musty scent of damp soil and decaying growth from last autums leaves scattering the forest floor. A thrill runs up her spine as a wolf's sorrowful cry fills the silence of the night.
A sense of freedom washed over her with that mournful cry and with a sudden wildness Loriana lifted her arms out wide, threw back her head and let flow a happy howl in answer to the wolf's call far off in the distance.
Hearing his reply, Loriana laughs delightedly and sprint's off into the woods, following whatever path her feet lead her on, her sheer white dress flashing encha
The subtle whisper of the wind through the trees.
The constant drone of busy pollen seeking bees.
The lilting melody of the bird's singing a song so sweet it could bring you to your knees.
A quiet babbling brook murmuring softly, flowing calmly and with a certain ease.
Mother Nature's blessings never failing to please.
A cocaphony of color intermingling with the dread of the dead.
A plush carpet of moss and old leave on the ground, in the branches stead, in ceratin places thick enough it could make a temporary bed.
A kiliediscopic scene so enthralling you can't help think your senses have been fed.
Everywhere you glance life abounds w
Bless the cowardly
The faint-hearted ones who hide in the dark
Terrified and paranoid, but cautious
Taking the safest way out
Sure not to cause harm to themselves or those around them
They are respectful in their nervousness
And modest in their actions
Afraid of boastful beings
Each step is a conscientious one
As they carefully survey their surroundings
And hypothesize from the collected information
Hail to the brave
Every risk is a new experience
And a new experience is a life well spent
Taking the next step and testing the hypothesis
Doing everything in their control to achieve one goal
Their courage becomes honored by their
I am calm now.. My computer screen is still intact and I rarely stay angry for long.. I also do not think I have ever hated anyone for longer than it takes my pain and anger to subside which it has... I am just resigned now to be alone.. more than my heart being destroyed, my trust in people and my own judgement was badly damaged but I'll move on like always.. maybe not as I was before but I'll move on just the same.
I did learn something though which once again I can thank the same person that I was hating lastnight.. I learned that needing someone only brings pain and that to be happy you can only rely on yourself. therefore i move on comp
Oh my god! I went crazy today!
I've had alot going on in my life lately and I think it all came to a head today and exploded out of my head like a bad case of the shits. Heh. I think I might have burnt myself out though because its not even 1 and I'm completely exhasted which is very not me. I hope all these recent deviations dont put me on a writers block. I'm beginning to feel a little more confident about myself lately and all this writing has helped me get through some difficulties recently. Anyway.. I'm rambling now so I'll shut up!.
Oh my god! I went crazy today!
My life has been really busy lately and I've had alot going on in my head that seems to have come out today in all those recent deviations. But I think I burnt myself out because its not even 1 and I'm exhasted so I'm calling it a day and hitting the sack. I'll most likely have writers block forever now from doing so much in one day but lets hope not. All this writing seems to be helping me get through some difficult things that have happened recently in my life and I'm starting to have a little more confidence in myself which I was severly lacking. Anyway.. I'm rambling now cause I'm tired so I'll shut up now!